God is so good. Every day that I'm here, in India, I feel completely humbled that he saw me as fit to do this. I wouldn't have said I was, but he knew better. He knew I was capable but that I really needed a boost of confidence. The truth is, we don't have to be superheroes to follow Jesus. All that's required is obedience. And in order to obey God, you need to have faith. I've been reminded recently through a couple of different people that the root meaning of the word "confidence" is "with faith." I am required to live confidently, and I'm so thankful that God has taught me who to place my confidence in.
My identity isn't in what I do. I "am" not a missionary, a teacher, a development worker, or anything else that I do on the day to day. I am a daughter of God. The other day, I was reading something where someone confidently stated that they knew what to do because it's what everyone in their family does. On the day to day, I know what to do because I've studied and continue to study the Bible, and it is God's word that teaches us what those who are in God's family are expected to do and how they are expected to act. I am daily so proud of who my father is and, therefore, what family I am a part of. I want to carry on this legacy well and bring honor to God's reputation everywhere I go. It's my responsibility.
At times, culture seems insurmountable. I could learn ten new things about Indian culture every day and still learn ten new things the next day that I had no idea about before. Whereas I definitely will continue to learn as much as I can about the culture, my more important job is to bring about a holy culture, one that God is pleased with.
So, on the days when things just seem hard, when misunderstanding follows misunderstanding, and I just want to grasp for something familiar, I feel the gracious hand of God reach out to me, reminding me that he is familiar. He is the most familiar thing in the world to me and he'll never let go and he'll never become a stranger. He is faithful and continues to supply me with everything I need to do this that he has called me to do.